Just thought the group of friends I have here might like this contest from fetlife...

http://fetlife.com/sit_on_santas_lap

you never know!

location: Home music: Halestorm - I get Off

I met a guy that is 5 years older then me and would like to spend time with me. I'm not all that attracted to him (I think it's the mullet and 1970's mustache) but I think he's just looking for a good time and nothing serious, I hope. I've been celibate for 15 months and the desire for sex is almost a need at this point, I crave it sooo bad... Do I go for it and hope it takes the edge off so I can keep it together until I find someone I really want, and hope he doesn't fixate on me or do I keep looking for someone I really want to be with? Any opinions?

location: The Office mood: contemplative music: Yes - Roundabout

I'm still around I just forgot my user name when I re-installed windows so it took a while to get back on this account. I'm still celibate and it sucks, I wish there was someone worthy of my attention but around here a good catch is considered one that is literate or has a few teeth left and I want more then that in a lover.

I'm so needy I would beg the right person and if that was what they were into. I need fulfillment... other then taht things are going fine. I was thinging of writting some new stories but I get distracted reading them instead....

location: Home mood: horny music: traffic outsode

Well it's Sunday again, I have coffee and am bored. I have sunch an exciting life. I need a boi or two to keep me amused...

location: Home mood: contemplative music: The new Silverstein cd...

So I was getting ready to post and noticed that I had my birthday wrong... Where did I get June 13 from? after this long you'd figure I'd remember my own birthday, I fixed it. So still not much going on. Started feeling sick Thursday night hoped it would go away, it didn't so I spent a boring weekend home with lots of tea and Venture Brothers season 3. I feel a lot better today but the weekend is already shot. I'll have to do something interesting next weekend.

I may go out more next month the weather is finally getting nicer here but the car is having issues. I guess after 11 years, a few accidents and 212,000+ miles it deserves a break but I can't afford to replace it thanks to a lot of the debt my ex managed to stick me with when we split. He declared bankrupcy and it seems that I had cosinged a couple of loans and was on one of his credit cards, so he wasted 7 years of my life, ruined my credit, got the house, my bike (not that it ran well anyway) and the cat and is already living off another woman in relative comfort. Maybe I am a sucker...

Well I'm going to wrap this up and do my laundry. I have such an exciting life...

location: home mood: melancholy music: Combichrist - Enjoy the abuse

really... I do.. just got really distracted for a while...

location: Work mood: tired music: Country sounding stuff on the radio

How long do I need to go without sex to be declared a born again virgin? I really feel like it can happen at this point.

I can almost feel the desire for intercourse like a hunger. It's been so long since I've had it, I've done other things, but I really need a good old fashioned "roll in the hay"...

Happy Holidays too... they are upon us and the radio is mixing holiday songs into their playlist. I'm so far behind this year... really I am. I hope everyone else is doing better.

location: Work music: Christmas songs

Sorry for the long gap. I've been out meeting people and doing things... got spanked last weekend and such. It was fun. Not much else is going on other then the temptation to move to NC where it's warmer and such. I'll have to come up with more later but I am still around really. TTFN

location: Work music: Country sounding stuff on the radio

I read this and think a few people that read my lj might get a kick out of it.

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location: Home music: Motorcycles going by...

I'm doing great I love being single, I love my apartment. I've had a few bad dates and besides the lack or sex (which I wasn't really getting with him very often anyway) it's been great. I'm actually saving money since I can walk to work and not drive an hour and a half every day. My creative side is digging itself out and I'm actually drawing again and I did a painting. I'm also running again and starting to look good if I say so myself. I can't wait till I get down to my goal which will be really soon now and then I can go out looking for a really interesting Halloween costume and maybe a whole new wardrobe includidng some sexy clothes.

I'm liking the clean and quiet of having my own place it's nice not having to deal with the mess and smells of him and his friends. I don't get crap for going to bed early and I can walk around nude and not have to worry about one of his friends just walking in. I can keep a few bottles around the house and have a glass of wine and know that it will still be there the next day since he's not around to finish it off.

Over all I'm feeling and looking better then I have in years and I'm loving it. Work is boring but I get a lot of stuff done that way including working on that story I keep putting out in tiny bits...

location: Work mood: bouncy music: light rock crap

I have the next part ready to go except for some editting but it's longer then I figured and it gets a bit slow at times having a plot and such. I'll be posting it later when it's polised but I wanted to let people know in case they wanted to go re-read the first bits since this follows the last part directly.

location: Work music: Commercials

I moved into my own apartment over the weekend. I'm still waiting for a few things to be worked out like my internet and TV, but for now everything seems to be falling into place.

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location: Work music: Crap on the radio

Some of it is oddly enticing... I mean really human beings facing me while copulating... interesting....

location: Work mood: contemplative music: Commercials

So I'll be moving into my own place on the 1st of May, single, free and living by myself for the first time. I've always had a live in boyfriend before, this is going to be new. I'm excited, I'll be free to persue my passions without him interfering.

I'm not sure how to break the news to him that I'm leaving because he's not going to take it well but I'll get through it. I'm going to miss the cat but it is more his then mine and he'll have more space for it.

I'm hoping that without having to cover his bills as well as my own I'll have more money for travel and fun which are things I've been missing a lot. It seems like as soon as I moved in with him he changed into a homebody that never went out or did things, he just sits home and play video games when he's not working and expects me to be the breadwinner and the housewife... well I quit.

Now if they could only start selling fully functional mandroids that can be programmed for housework and bedroom skills... lol

location: Work mood: determined music: Crap on the radio

and I'm going to look at a few aparments today... Odd, I have never really lived on my own before and I'm looking forward to it. I went from my parents to college to living with a fiance back to parents to living with fiance2. Now I'm looking to get my own place while I prepare to make the move back to NY and probably to my sister's until I can find a place of my own in NY or give up and move south or west from there. I'm looking forward to being single but, I'm a bit scared of getting lonely. I have no clue how to meet people and I'm not really fond of the people in this area anyway, but I don't want to be alone all the time until I get back to NY. This sucks and is great at the same time.... I think my brain is going to explode.

location: Work mood: crazy music: Easy Lover - Genesis

I guess this really does mean I'm serious about leaving him.

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I'm also sorry it's been a few weeks since I checked my LJ...

location: Work mood: blah music: Crap on the radio

I'm also a bit tired of complaining so if I get a few moments I'll write a story and post something fun. I did write a story a few weeks ago but it's not really my usual and it's a lot of non-consenusal stuff and I'm not sure I should post it... I'm going to think about it and try to write something more fun in the meantime...

location: Work music: Crap on the radio